What is love? If not a glorious delusion?
As vivid as a hallucination; ethereal and ephemeral,
to examine it, scrutinize it dissect, trap or change it,
as fruitful as grasping at vapours,
fading, a half forgotton dream,
lost in the glare of the cold light.



Discuss.

These are my results, this is the test i was given at my job interview.


Trying to improve her position and prestige. Dissatisfied with her existing circumstances and considers some improvement essential to her self-esteem
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.
Circumstances force her to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity
Takes easily and quickly to anything which provides stimulation. Preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature, whether erotically stimulating or otherwise. Wants to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality with an altogether charming and impressive influence on others. Uses tactics cleverly so as to avoid endangering her chances of success or undermined others' confidence in herself.
Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.

Emily took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Takes easily and quickly to anything which provide..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

1. Were you worried about moving in with Joei's strange friends? How did myself and Pei-Yi meet and confound your expectations?

no i wasnt worried, i was a bit scared of pei - yi and thought we might clash, but then after that night when i sliced my hand open and she sat thru A&E with me all night i thought she was pretty cool. you, i thought wud be pretty easygoing and you were, though wen i was first round u and joei i cud only understand about half of what u sed cos there were so many in jokes! it was like listening to another language!

2. What theme party do you think will beat the gay party?

bondage and fetish / rocky horror party will kick ass.


3. If you knew Friday (3 days time)was the last day of your life, what would you do?
i would let my family and friends know. then i'd go on holiday - with all of my mates, probably the shangri - la in penang. order in some oysters, fresh bread and butter, jamon serrano, chorizo, croissants, cheese, and a few barrels of rioja, some fizzy demi - sec, pink moet and an andless supply of 4 cheese pizza. maybe perform an inpromtu cheer routine for everyone, buy a load of beautiful bikinis, shoes and ball dresses, play some decent reggae music and just have a 3 day long party on the beach.


4. What are the two best and worst things you've done in the last twelve months?

worst thing - getting hammered and going back to Gwilym (from torchwood's) house the night / early morning before a really imortant cheer comp. then having alcohol poisoning all day long and falling off a simple lib stunt. so irresponsible. *shame*

best thing - ah babe so many good things - seeing johnny depp in real life, going to madrid, moving to SGWH, snogging pretty boys, getting a fantastic job, buying a house (almost there now), getting to know loads of new cool people. This last year has given me so much validation in so many ways. i just felt like things fell into place this last year, and theres a whole load of little things and a few big things that just made me feel so much more confident and happy about my life and where its going and what i want from it. i feel like it might all turn out OK.

5. What is your fursona and why?
meow. kittys cant type. purrr.

ok its thursday - nearly the end of the week an dcaus e for celebration "mini friday stlyel" - well - i took te celbratuon too far tonight.


i was invited - very last minute to an IP function - hosted by A Law Firm, i toddled along - it was fine - did some networkning, sayed for drinkds, wS CHTTING TO 2 partners, and for some reason cheerleading cropped up - an they asked nme a bou t it n - BIG MISTAKE - I attempted to shw them a stunt - and made them kneel on the ground - and then i was like - " so themn i'd stand on you /" and thy werwe like - "so stand on us then" - so i loaded into the stunt - and wacked the main parther in the eye!!!


he was squinting for 10 minutes!!

he will have ablack eye tomorrow!!1



so drunk - they kept re - fillin my glass while i wasnt watching. i fell asleep oon the bus home and woke up in beckton - then had to get bus backagain''!!

i cleearly took my mini friday a satep 2 far!

ARG,.

OK, a lots happened in a couple of days.
on friday we went out for Kin's birthday party - at a roller disco! It was good fun and I seemed to remember my skating skils from when i was about 10 years old! The only problem was we couldnt really talk, as everyone was rolling round at different speeds! Jane dropped a bombshell by ever so casually mentioning that her boyf, Chris "wants to go to Thailand to live there....and I think he thinks I'm going too", when i quizzed her - saying, "so, you said no right?" her response was, "I tried to say no, but he didnt seem to hear me, besides, Thailand might be nice." I decided she is just going through some sort of temporary relationship related insanity came home relatively early and read some of related madness and she'll relise that its not a great idea to emigrate with aguy you've my current bedtme story - "diary of a manhattan call girl" and got some beauty sleep.

Ben took me out for oysters and champagne on saturday, and then we went to a nice pub in knightsbridge. I am beginning to think he believes i am a Nice Girl, who is meant to be Treated Properly. Which is wonderfully refreshing, even if i do feel a bit panicked - like he'll suddenly find out that underneath this veneer i'm a fraud - a common chav from da 'Heath (Bexley that is). Not that I have shunned my roots - my best friends now are the ones i had back then, its just i think he thinks i'm a bit posh, like a sloane square girl, and I dont want to dissapoint.

The gay party was wicked, and got to see Jane and her new bloke!! yey! she hasnt been completely hermittified!! Chris - her boy, is lovely and clearly dotes on her! though i still think asking her to go to thailand is a bit sudden - they've only been seeing each other for only 2 weeks.....

I had fun being marylin at the party up until i cunningly tried to re - glue my false eyelashes upstairs - and squirted half a tube of eyelash glue into my eyeball. I then spent the best part of the next hour with my head in the sink and periodically shouting "fuck - god, ow!" and "I'm too young to go blind!!!" in case anyone was wondering where i disappeared to. today i was still finding congealed bits of glue in my eye, and at one point it started twitching, but no blindness yet.

Chinese new year was a bit of a non event - due to rude, uninformed, indoctrinated, sexist condesending pedants (policemen), who were incredibly aggressive to me and Joei, because they were blocking all access to china town, and we needed to get in to reach Thai and co. In the end we went else where, but the bad mood the pigs had created sat like a permanent raincloud over the rest of the day. Joei and Thai had a row on the way back, then patched it up. When we got home we soothed ourselves with Xena dvds and hot choc!!

Today i was a little stressed cos I had an appraisal at work, but it went fine.

looking forward to pancake day, gonna attempt to eat nothing but pancakes all day long! :)

Despite moaning about how awful valentines is, today I had a really good day.!!
Last night i got back from work to find a big bouquet of flowers sitting on the doorstep! I picked them up assuming they were for Pei-yi, then she looked at the card and said "they're for you," I was so surprised - I don't know anyone who knows my adress who would buy me flowers!! so after eliminating Chris and Joei from the potential senders list I felt relly chuffed!! the flowers are roses and Lilys in pink purple and white and the note just said - "i think you're awesome." They made me very happy and today was spent analysing the list of potential suitors....
My insane ex boyfrind Sam cant have left them because he was cooking dinner at the time they were left there....
but aside from that i cant think of anyone!!!
I'm really hoping they arent from Sam cos then I'll be really disspaointed. I doubt it was him though becasue his note wouldnt be so restraind - it would more on the lines of "I got these from tescos and drove here from quite far, now lets get naked in the back of my car." creeepy.

Anyway, my day- this morning I got a cheeky card and lovely pressies from Chris which kept me grinning all day - He got me the cuddly Catbus from Totoro! and a mug with pastel love hearts all over it - wich 'i took to work, and a terry's chocalte orange. I really love my Catbus it so cute and happy!!

Then on the way to work i ended up to a random spanish girl about my noisy key fob. Work was busy but fine, I got an email from Richard P asking if we could try to be friends but thats another story, and went for lunch with Ben, who's the cute English graduate i went out with on monday. WE sat on the comfy sofa and i told himm about the mysterious flowers - and his response was - "so if you don't know who it is...that means anyone can take the credit -hay it was me!" but he diesn't know where i live, anyway we had a yummy lunch and ended up snogging on the sofa, but I had to stop cos i felt wierd kissing in public, and didnt want people to think i was being one f those horrible couple things you see so much of on valentines day.

After work me and jane met for nandos then did a cool stunt sequence involving basket toss, reload to smosh, reload to extenyion, cradle reload to lib. then a pyramid in which th central flier goes in a hand stand, and anothe r 2 1/2 high in which me and another girl go in shoulder sits and a flyer stands on our shoulders. hopefully oit will be perfect before we pwerforn next weekend. Janw has unintentially acquired a new appendage - i believe they are called boyfrinds. This concept is quite aline to Jane who hasnt had one of them since she dumped a boy by post - it when she was at school. It came as a bit of a shock to see such a confirmed batcherlorette lower herself to the ranks of coupledom, but she seems mostly happ. She said she can't come to the party / orgy because she's going to a couple's dinner thing! And so it begins.... in a few more weeks she'll have forgotton our names.

when i got bak Joei told me about his new ambition to be the pigeon lady from mary poppins, (advanced spinsterhood), and gave me yummy chocs!!

The only real down point of the day was that someone left some putrid rotting fish in the kitchette area of our open plan office, which stunk out the whole place. i had to type with one hand in interviews and hold my nose on the other one, which probably didnt look very professional, but saved me from throwing up from the fumes!!

and on that note - its time for me to sleep. I have a weekend orgy to prepare for...
did i mention my friend keechi is coming? she was a prostitiute for a while. y'all gotta make her feel welcome!

peace and love! xxx

OK. I'm online and making a concerted effort to actually start making entries on this site thingy. Being completely internet illiterate I have no concept of what I am supposed to write here. but I have been ably advised by DJ Damien it should be a) interesting and b) entertaining.

Therefore I am hosting an Orgy at the forthcoming weekend at the SGWH, and Everyone's invited!!! *. The orgy will take place at some point during the "not another gay party" and only gay people and people dressed as gay people will be allowed to play. Please RSVP to me or one of the other SGWH residents.


Ta very much!


xxxx.

* no perverts, homophobes, furries or OAPs.